I'll be honest: this college life is hard. I find myself going to sleep all hours of the morning, night, whatever you want to call it. Some days I do the work required, other days I forget the work that I must do. Spanish is most definitely kicking my ass. Hell, I even S/U'd the course (long story as of what that means, but let's just say it's a step closer to me not giving a fuck.) In the midst of it all, however, I can say that at least I'm trying to push forward.
When I think about it, all that's pushing me forward is my mother (who of course is the only person that I have in my immediate home,) my friends here at school and at home, and of course those select few family members that I can say have held me even in the darkest times. They are the reason why I still strive to go to school; they are my positive influence and my drive. Everyday I think, "this is leading towards a bigger picture." That bigger picture is for me to be proud of who I am and show the rest that anyone can do what I am doing.
So the hard work? It will always be hard. What I'm getting from the hard work? Life skills, closer to a comfortable living (hopefully,) and self confidence above all. I already made it through one semester; I'm pretty sure that another semester can't hurt...right? Hey, at least I can say that I'm trying.
When I think about it, all that's pushing me forward is my mother (who of course is the only person that I have in my immediate home,) my friends here at school and at home, and of course those select few family members that I can say have held me even in the darkest times. They are the reason why I still strive to go to school; they are my positive influence and my drive. Everyday I think, "this is leading towards a bigger picture." That bigger picture is for me to be proud of who I am and show the rest that anyone can do what I am doing.
So the hard work? It will always be hard. What I'm getting from the hard work? Life skills, closer to a comfortable living (hopefully,) and self confidence above all. I already made it through one semester; I'm pretty sure that another semester can't hurt...right? Hey, at least I can say that I'm trying.
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